My neck and upper back muscles seized on me this morning...lots of pain. Todd helped me all he could, still cried some from all the sharp pain. Got an appointment with Ty at 10... and one with Sutton just in case I felt worse after being adjusted. Got to cancel the trip to MV to see Sutton. Stiil would have liked some muscle relaxers! But did the right thing and got better,I have an appointment tommorow at 8:50 again with TY ,still cheaper than seeing Sutton once and getting meds. Oh well,just another break from my work out routine, which I will have to make up for.

Emily had asked me if Aragorn and Arwen get married,I said "yes, in the story they have a boy named Eldarion and little girls together." I came back into the room a short while later and heard Isaac say,"I'm goina marry Madison." Emily's response " Isaac,you don't know who you will marry...God has someone special planed for you ,and you have to wait for her,....God is preparing a little boy just for me too."

Sexual and emotional purity, if only we could all see its beauty as God does.

And he said:"I tell you the truth,unless you change and become like children,you will never enter the kingdom of heaven."

So, how you doin'?

I am reading a book called Lifetime guarantee. At first I thought "yeah,this is all truth I have heard before,but I have never been able to change my behavior for the long run..." My Will decided to push through and continue reading to the end hoping that there would be something I could glean from it,Gods word doesn't return void,so I know its doing something. Then I hit chapter 5, something I had not thought about,....then chapter 6...I realized that he needed to have the first 4 chapters to help set up the diagrams he uses to help give a picture of reality. It has been awhile since I have had old truth explained in such a way that I really think its going to change me forever. There is hope for me.

Fair day today. Its almost gone and it seems like I've put it all on a credit card.

Worked out legs...gotta love that! Closed a Partylite show,now I just need to get everyone to pay for their stuff. If it all pans out I will actually make money ,thanks Discover card! Talked to my Mutti(mother in law) for two hours about the evils of the unions. Had the Becks stay here and play while Beth went to the doc's. Other than that not to much has gotten done thus far,and I have been up since 6:00. Sad really. But at least its sunny and not to cold, upside!

This past summer something happened in my life that pushed me past the edge of my existence as I believed it to be. Even as I fell headlong over the brink, my God I realized had been indeed holding me. I ,with the busyness of "life" had not noticed for some time just how close He always IS. I was brought to this state of being "truly awake" through an almost constant prayer filled study of His living words,a forced fast and brothers and sisters praying for me hourly,even while not in my presence. Why does it take a heart stopping calamity to cause me to shed my "inhibitions" and desperately open up to Jesus "just as I am" and to put forth effort into my relationship with Him? I know life has chores and things that must be done,plus the whole "all work and no play makes Joe a dull boy" syndrome,so add in some entertainment,children,church,husbands needs,friends needs,work........It can't be a matter of spending all day in quiet time because friends feel sorry for you and take care of kids and chores to be able to a "high" with God. All though through that situation I saw Gods face as never before, I do not care to ever go through something like that again,so the conundrum...
I have slipped once again into the void of not noticing His daily call. Normal "life" has stolen it from my open unguarded hand. Oh, I still have a quiet time ,but not much. I still pray,but not with desperation. God have mercy on me.
"Turn to me and have mercy on me,as you always do to those who love your name. Direct my footsteps according to your word;let no sin rule over me. Redeem me from the oppression of men,that I may obey your precepts. Make your face shine upon your servant and teach me your decrees. Streams of tears flow from my eyes,for your law is not obeyed."

It's SunDAY.. Had to open,got there at 10,a full hour before they open. Left at 3:00. 35$ measley dollars. Yuck,not worth it. Todd and the kids came in at lunch, tried to catch some of the game. Yeah Colts! Got home to see the final two mins. Todd and Jacob went to see The Return of The King. And Beth and I are going to go at 7:30. Third times a charm!

Feel completely undirected... Bored to fat. Didn,t work out this morning, assumed I wouldn't have a car. My dad spent the night and took our car to work with him to get new tires put on. My trucks heater quit working, it was supposed to go to Smiths service center, so I again thought my husband would have to drive it and take it in. But, it is sitting in the driveway,I dont know how we are going to get the car back...I am not really bothered by it...very lacsidasical today. I think its the lack on vitamin D. I need to tan or slip further into seasonal depression.
Jacob loves LOTR. which is very cool. I want to understand valor and fighting against evil at all cost. He watched it today for the second time,and tonight I think Todd said he could watch Two Towers ext. with us. That should be fun.
Where is the snow? It's cold and cloudy but no precipitation. If its going to be winter...there should be SNOW! I want to go sledding.
School was bad today, I dont think the kids wanted to learn anything and I am on the short end of a stick. Need to put on some worship songs and get my focus off me...

http://www.boundless.org/regulars/list_guy/a0000845.html I read this! Need to read it again.

My bolg is coming along nicely thanks to my big brother(in-law). He has been very patient will me,a person who knew what she wanted but didn't have the foggiest idea on how to get it. Its still a work in progress,but he is really very quick considering all the demands on his time.

I got a lot done this week,so I am taking it somewhat easy,and just cleaning the house today and reorganizing my storage cabinet . Last week I finished remodeling the downstairs bathroom (whew!) That had been a thorn in my flesh for 3 months. People had to pee in the dark or leave the door open,you can imagine guests were not thrilled when they walked into a bathroom with a hole in the wall and no lights! Monday I tried to finish putting away Christmas decorations(tough when there is no room to put it away) along with the normal routine. Tuesday after school I got a wild hair and took down an old ulgy fire hazard of a dining room light(looked more like a night light)and replaced it with one that hangs. All the available chain and wires let me actually hand it over the table. Best part...it cost 4.00$ from the home improvement warehouse. So I was able to install a dimmer and get a ceiling plate cover to cover up the hexagonal shape of old paint the last flat light had left. Wednesday, had to go to the store(yuck)but the upside was meeting Todd at Schlotzsky's Deli. Then came home to once again a fire inside to clean and organize the pantry(it had been a year). That is a lot harder than it seems. Especially while trying to get cheap underage labor. Jacob made 4$ he worked the hardest. Anyway, pretty satisfying week so far.

This is something I will no doubt get used to but for now seems strange. I have read other blogs,but not really thought to much about what kind of info makes for interesting reading. Got up (out of bed,didnt really sleep) this morning at 6:00 to go workout. Its enjoyable,but I work out by myself and sometimes I dont push myself as hard as I would if there were someone else watching. So, I dont feel like I am accomplishing as much. I did cardio for 30mins and read "A Case For Christ" then did chest and back with some added weighted lunges...just because. Got home before 8:00 so Todd could get to work on time. My day now starts.